Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Another baby?

Well I find myself over a month late. It is a possibility that I could be pregnate again. Do I want to be? No. Why would I? I am happy with Dalton. I shouldn't be able to be pregnate. I took a test last night and it said that I wasn't. So why this entry then? I am too late for it to just be changing. I am also afriad that there might be something wrong with me. What do I do then? I wish I knew. The only thing that I can do is go to the doctor once I get home. I really hope that it won't be another 2 months before I can get an appointment. Thats how it generally happens when I try to go see a doctor.
Either way, I can't do it alone.
If I am pregnate and it was just a false negative, then I will end up being on bed rest again. I will also end up getting another c-section. Then I won't even be able to drive myself for weeks. I won't even be able to lift a clothes basket for a while.
If I am not pregnate and there is something wrong with me. I just may have a break down. I am not sure how I will be able to handle it.
Is this suppossed to be another defining moment in life for me?

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Anonymous SPELLCHECK =] said...

i just thought id tell you its not pregnate or however u spell it.
it is PREGNANT

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Anonymous Spelling Nazi said...

The word is "Pregnant", not "Pregnate" (in fact, that isn't even a word).

That being said, I'm sorry to hear of the troubling times. Is your husband in Iraq now or will he be going soon? How is he coping with this?

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